I have what I have always wanted- a family. I love my husband, I love my daughter. So why do I need more? When I got pregnant last year I asked the doctor- how long can I safely wait before trying to have a second baby? the answer I got was 6 months. So my daughter is 8 months old and we have been trying for 3 months now. Even though it took us seven years to get pregnant with our daughter I somehow thought it would be easy this time. When I did not get pregnant the first month well I chalked that up to no fertility drugs, the second month- I was seriously disappointed but I accepted that I was not pregnant. This month is a totally different story- first we did not see the specialist this month so it was just good old fashioned sex. My body was really clear about when I ovulated and so I know we had sex at the right time. For the first week after I was pretty calm. Maybe it happened, maybe it did not, I was okay. But then in the middle of the night I woke up and my breasts hurt, and they hurt for a few days after. I started to get excited that maybe I was pregnant. Two days before my period was due I took a test, it was negative. I was sad for a few hours but when I got pregnant with my daughter I took two tests that were negative before I got my positive- 3 days after my period was due. So I did not lose hope. My period was due on Sunday and it was a no show. Since about 6 months before I got pregnant I have been VERY regular, every 28 days. So when I did not get it that day I was really excited, convinced I was pregnant. On Monday I took a pregnancy test, again it was negative, well so still not period and it really did not phase me, even after 2 negatives I was still sure I was pregnant. So Tuesday night I was going to take another test, but before I did I sorta got my period. I say sorta because my period always starts HEAVY. and this one is LIGHT. So I know the likelyhood that I am pregnant is very slim, but my mom had a period when when she was pregnant with my brother. I am still holding on to hope.
A note on Katie's developement- yesterday she pulled herself up for the first time in her crib. I was not home, she did it for Joe. That makes me sad that I missed it but glad she does some firsts for him too. Right now she is alseep next to me in the bed. I hate to think she will be my only child, but if she is I am still so blessed that she is in my life. No one should ever have to go through infertillity.
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